it was not a good day...
I was expecting so much, as last time it was soo amazing... we had not seen our baby for 2 months, so we were both quite excited ...
we got there early as usual, just to be told we would have to wait, I do not even want to make a big deal out of the waiting; let's just skim over and get to the part where a little funny man came out of the visitation room and called our names....
I immediately did not feel confident ( I am not very happy when a man i do not know has to rummage through my bits, sorry men)... we got weighted (60.8 Kgs if you are interested a gain of not even 7kgs from he beginning of pregnancy) ... we got measured ...1.61m (the man of course did not care i was wearing high heels, nor that having not looked at my notes i had grown a good 3 cms in the last 3 months......)
alarm bells started going on in my mind...
We got in and got introduced to MEDIBOT or as the NHS calls him Dr Lai ....
strapped to a mini bed, not a word to us
manhandled, poked for blood, and tested for blood pressure
(they had to test me 9 times for blood pressure.... i started to get so anxious they could not get reading)
...
First up the funny man, turns out to be a trainee that prods my bump with ultrasound and strange images come up on screen.... no words from the "doctors"
...after 15 minutes i get so anxious as they are not saying anything tears start streaming down my face.... i am saying i am uncomfortable... nobody cares... Richard dries tears...
another 15 minutes... where Medibot snatches the probe and starts prodding me all over again ... at this point i am so tense it is bloody painful....
time's up a tissue is handed to me to dry the gel .... a paper is handed to Richard not to me, medibot announces all is fine, this is the last scan, go ....
We go out, i am shaken, upset and a bit furious...
I cry for 30 minutes....
A complaint is on its way to the hospital, I am sure Dr Lai is very competent and knows his job, but ,oh my, he needs to learn some manners... he has transformed what was supposed to be a magical day in a crap horrible experience....I was honestly so shaken i could not even face going to work .... I hid all day under the duvet....
These are the results of the scan....
.... on Wednesday we see the obstetrician, i am still sure there is something wrong and they did not want to say anything....
this did nothing to reassure me and relax me...
hopefully i will feel better after Wednesday
:( sai che ci sono per te, ti vi bi
ReplyDeleteOh, you poor thing. They see so many pregnant women I'm sure half of them (especially the men) forget how emotional and traumatising these experiences can be for a woman during her first pregnancy. Thinking of you. x
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