33 weeks pregnant

... 33 weeks pregnant ...
only 7 to go
my hormones are completely out of control and I am teary, crazy, angry all at the same time
7 weeks....
i was looking at all of the update i receive from baby centre ... the first one was the 6 weeks pregnant check and it was dated 1st November 2011 ... it feels like a million years ago, and at the same time it seems nothing as changed... but everything has changed...
I can't run anymore, i can't work 16 hours a day anymore, i can't eat like 4 pigs anymore, i can't drink anymore.... and i have not been out properly in 7.5 months.... I am even more paranoid and apprehensive than i have ever been ...
... and the responsibility of it all is kind of crashing me....
i feel responsible already for this little micino inside, what if i did not build him/her correctly? what if i made the thing to short, too fat, too stupid, too blond, too red, too political....OMG what if my body went crazy and it made him/her with wings, scales, tail or in the shape of a big rat?????????
(granted most of these would be quite cool :P )
Yes all of this paranoia are swarming in my brain.... may the gods of Olympus protect this silly baby because i can see myself turning in the mothers from hell.... the "maglietta di lana",do not forget your hat, do not run too fast....OMG I am going to be all of those things i hated in my mother and more...
DAMN GENES
so there is nothing more to do than take it easy:

Tomorrow is the appointment with the "Ostrich" and i am a bit worried ... i hope everything will be fine...
if i have failed this would be a massive fail....
I have to go on my own as Richard cannot come, i really did not want to be alone, but i can't face to take anyone else in case is not good news....

well will let you all know tomorrow