Thursday, 21 June 2012

Last day at work

And so the la\st day at working is looming
... tomorrow for the first time in my life I will be leaving work not to return for 4 months ....
which in working time is an eternity...
I haven't had such a long break since university holidays time....
I feel a bit apprehensive and confused
everyone is pretending to care and smile, but i know they do not really care too much and i know after 2 weeks it will be like i have never been there....
but what about me? How do i really feel?
I am a bit scared, scared of not being able to cope, scared of becoming my mother (OMFG please make it NOT so), scared of loosing myself

For the first time in my life i will go back one day far from now with a very different mentality
work will not be as important as it is now
i know it won't but i can't imagine how it will happen
 i am both curious and worried
....
Work, study; success in these fields has been all i have ever known and cared for half my life
i am at the brink of a truly momentous change
one of the few times in life when YOU KNOW everything WILL change
it's not just an idea, you know it will happen
well in the meantime let's enjoy the time left

Here is Barbara riding off into the distance and the sunset....
verso nuove e meravigliose avventure
( Bonanaza's theme plays in the distance)
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6 comments:

  1. Anonymous21 June 2012 at 21:01

    che bel post Barbara!
    è vero le cose cambieranno ma devi pensare che sei stata programmata anche per fare la mamma quindi tutto ti verrà naturale come qualsiasi altra fase della crescita.
    E poi sei in gamba come poche, non dimenticarlo
    :-)
    un abbraccio
    Franceschino-san

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  2. Anonymous21 June 2012 at 21:50

    Hi Barbara,

    You'll be find. You'll be so relax and calm, remember the exercises you have learnt you just need to put them into practice when it happens.

    All the very best, take care and look forward to seeing the pictures xxxx

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  3. Valentina21 June 2012 at 22:13

    Go Barby gooooooo! Fuck work fuck reports fuck early trains fuck meetings fuck it all! Enjoy the baby and your 4 months off!!!!!

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  4. Anto22 June 2012 at 01:31

    This post encapsulates it so well. I wish I could say something to make you feel less worried but you know I'm not good with these things. I just remember when I first met you, years ago, when you used to have different views on marriage and children. THEN you met Micio... And you found a new side of yourself. So it'll be the same with Mini-Micio.
    Lots of love to Micia, Micio and Mini-Micio,
    Anto

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    1. Galadkria22 June 2012 at 07:45

      anto che piangere che mi hai fatto venireeeeee

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  5. Francesca23 June 2012 at 00:39

    ma allora e' miciO

    ps ti voglio bene, you'll be the best mum ever (as you've had some practice on me)

    <3
    ;)

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